D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-E-D !
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Seems like , you still couldn't kick your habit. I dont wana discribe too much here.
a leopards can never change it spots. Got one time , sure got second time.
I've find out something very nasty that hurt me so much. You not only lied to me, you even break your promise. If that person didn't tell me , i still wouldn't know. I still would thought you really changed for me. Haha, how naive can i be ?
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You said , it's typing error, but who knows whether if it's true. I pangseh-ed my friends for you. & that causes my friend to talk stuff behind my back. Yet i didn't borther. But you? what did you repay me ? Betrying me on th first month , Doing things i dont like on th second time, & many more. Did i never once forgived you ? Perhaps , im just too soft hearted for love. Benjamin , im really really really disappointed.
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you disappointed me too much. i hate you for lying to me , i hate you for breaking your promise , i hate you for hurting me , i hate you even more when you just couldn't kick that habit even thought i've forgiven you so much time & when you promise to change. You request for time for you to change. I gave. But did you change ? Because of you , Parents and mine relationship get worst.
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Friends ask me to leave you. But i really couldn't bear to . I've tried many times to forget you , but i really can't. Im worrying that i couldn' be there for you tmr when you go court. Yet you still could... Forget it . i don't wana continue all this rubbish here. That's it.
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DO WHATEVER YOU WANT , DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE , DO WHATEVER THING YOU WISH TO DO NOW. I WON'T BE BORTHERING. YOU'RE FREE. ALL THE BEST FOR TOMORROW COURT . BRING SOMEONE ELES YOU REALLY WISH TO BRING TOMORROW THEN . I REALLY REGRET KNOWING THINGS ABOUT YOU , I REALLY REGERT KNOWING WHAT YOU DID. IF I DIDN'T PERHAPS EVERYTHING WOULD JUST BE FINE.
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Iloveyou , that's why my heart would ache, Iloveyou thats why despite all those wrong thing you did, i still forgive you & i didn't leave you. I really can't bear to. I tried to close one eye, But its really very tough. You know, i can never bear to leave you just like that even though i really dontknow if i could still trust your words...